I don't know if anyone else has felt like this, but this week has felt off to me. I think I started to notice on Monday when I went to check the mail and there wasn't any. Because it was President's Day. Only I hadn't noticed. At all. There was still school, Justin still had therapy after school, it still felt like a completely normal day, only there was a whole federal holiday.

Once upon a time, federal holidays were a big deal for me. It meant time off from work. At least a three day weekend and more likely a 4 day. Federal holidays meant time with family, time to not have to deal with Army stuff. No boots. No shaving. We would plan around them and know when each one was.

Now life has a different rhythm and different guideposts. I know when teacher work days are. I know when there are doctor's appointments (online or in person) or dentist's appointments. I know when Camp Royall starts for Justin. I know that right now we need eggs but we are good on chocolate milk. I don't remember the last time I counted guns or ammo.

Life is just different.